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THE FORUM HAS MOVED as the old host is closing down as of June 15th, so please register for the new forum at THIS LOCATION as of today - many thanks guys.

Pro ana without the bullshit - no tips, no creeds, we are not delusional. We have a mental illness and this site is to enable us to cope, to share, to inform of dangers and risks, to educate.

DO NOT POST TIPS & TRICKS ON THE FORUM OR LINKS TO YOUR GROUPS/SITES WITHOUT PERMISSION OR THEY WILL BE DELETED AND YOU MAY BE BANNED.

There are plenty of stupid, hateful, identikit 'Pro-Ana' sites to feed all your needs to go find one of them if that's what you are after. ANGELS has been running for 7+ years, when you are mature enough to face up to who you are, what it can do to you and you want to break the silence (whether you are currently ready to recover or not) then come back and find us.

EATING DISORDERS ARE NOT A FUCKING LIFESTYLE CHOICE. IF YOU WANT TO BELIEVE THAT THEN GO ELSEWHERE, IF YOU WANT THE REAL INFORMATION THEN STICK AROUND AND CHECK OUT THE WEBSITE.

Why Angels Exists

1.) To provide people with the correct information that they need to know. No frills or dressing it up like it's fun.

2.) To provide people with ED's a chance to see that what they feel is normal among people with the same conditions. To have a place to speak in a non-judgemental and anonymous way and to break the cycle of solitude and isolation that the negative voice feeds.

3.) To try to stay safe. Please read some of the dangers. There is information on this website that I hope will mean that some of the more destructive things you may be doing are no longer an option.

4.) Because I have seen people from here go on, get healthy, even start a family. If I can help any more people then fuck the haters, I am going to do it anyway.

The following was written August 2007 following downtime of the website:

Angels had to come back, I still get alot of emails asking for help, kids from all over the world who want advice, who are lonely, isolated, terrified of what they are going through... alone.

I ran a site for the Eating Disordered from 2000/2006 called Angels which closed 27th October 2006. This was down to haters making the mentally ill feel even worse than they already do. This time, I have but one request. Leave this to the people who belong here, spam and abuse will be reported.

Angels is not a 'pro ana' website as they came to be. Angels is also not a 'pro-recovery' site. This is a website for people who have not yet gone into formal recovery but who are not deluded about their illness. This is not a website for people who are in denial and who believe that their disease is a lifestyle choice. Eating disorders are mental illnesses and they can kill us, be it through substance abuse, suicide, or just the body wearing down and giving up. If you are not ready to hear all of that and read about exactly what can happen to you then please go find another website.

Angels does not condone any 'Tip' swapping on site. What people do within their own emails or instant messaging is up to them. I'm not here trying to dictate what you should or should not do. Just keep it off site and bear this in mind - people with a genuine disorder already have disordered behaviour patterns concerning food and exercise. They don't need tips or tricks to get them through from other people. There is a good chance that by passing on your methods you may actually be inflicting an innocent and non-disordered individual into triggering an eating disorder. That to me, after some 20 plus years of living like this is just fucking sick and sad. That is why I hate the normal pro ana sites. I hate that they read like a 'how-to' of hetting thin, like somehow we have all the answers. I hate how people see them and treat them like a secret diet club. Most of all I hate how they are full of bullshit like the Creed, the Commandments and all of that. That stuff is evil and dangerous. Eating disorders and illness and this is not a religion. People who treat it like it is or as a lifestyle choice are in some serious denial.

Eating disorders will kill you eventually, be it through a related condition or suicide, but having never been into formal recovery (other than non-residential therapy in which I somehow managed to disguise my illness from alot of psychoanalysis) I'm in no position to tell anyone they should do anything. But I do know what it's like to vomit blood regularly because I ripped my throat or my stomach couldn't take purging for the twelfth time in a day. I do know what it's like to live on painkillers for breakfast, enough for two or three days in a sitting, just so I could get up and start moving to burn off that all important non-existant fat. I do know that no matter how fucking thin you get it is never EVER thin enough. That's the truth. So until you are ready to get better please just do one thing, please ignore the websites with the dangerous advice, please read the information here and know the reality of your actions. Eat something, even if it's just a cup of vegetable soup, trust me you will feel better for it. A couple of sips is better than nothing. I don't eat a huge amount of food somedays but the days when you feel you can't are the days you need it the most. The reality is that an empty sense of nothingness is what ana/mia/ednos etc leave you with. ED's sap your strength, your social abilities, your whole life.

If you self harm there is information about that too, as well as depression, OCD, and a host of other issues including diabetes and BDD. Inform yourself, educate yourself, learn the dangers and if you do nothing else then please do one small act of kindness for yourself each day.

Stay Safe, with much love,

Angelica

xxx

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